When I went to Newport Beach for my NLP Master Practitioner Training, I did a breakthrough on Health and Fitness. I have stumbled for years trying to get in shape, trying to exercise more consistently. I played high school basketball and volleyball and never struggled with being in shape until college when I wasn't required to do anything and thought I could maintain things by doing nothing...silly me. I started to fall out of shape and was pretty heavy by the time I graduated and moved to Dallas. I joined Weight Watchers in Dallas with a friend and lost weight but I still didn't enjoy exercising. I kept trying to get excited about it but it never stuck. I exercised when my husband asked me to join him but I didn't seek it out on my own.
I wasn't excited to do a breakthrough on health & fitness but we had to do one as part of the training so that's what I selected. I had made a commitment to exercise every day while I was in Newport Beach and was doing it on my own but was afraid I wouldn't be able to maintain that when I got home. I realized that I always made self-deprecating comments about my body and it wasn't until someone pointed out how pervasive that is to my psyche that I decided I should address that.
During the breakthrough I realized I had always felt like my body had let me down. As a redhead, I was always made fun of so that was a disappointment in my body. I could never do cartwheels or back bends like the other girls so that was a disappointment. When I was having my children, I always thought I would have a natural childbirth and my body thought otherwise. I had 3 c-sections and an ovarian cyst-ectomy which trashed my abdomen and made me feel like I wasn't able to do what I should be able to.
After doing a breakthrough and releasing all that disappointment, I was finally able to SEE MYSELF in shape. I could visualize my arms having tone and muscle. I could visualize a flatter stomach and a tighter booty. This had never happened to me in my life! I wore my hair back off my face while in Newport which was the first time ever in my life. I always felt I had to have bangs to look half-way decent. When going to the pool with friends I had just met in Newport, I put on my suit and went. We swam and laughed and had a blast. It wasn't until I got back to my room that night that I realized I didn't once think about my body or feel self-conscious about my body while at the pool. I felt SO FREE!
Since arriving home, I have been excited to exercise and able to eat a diet of less volume (healthy choices weren't necessarily my problem). I look forward to exercising because I know my body is moving toward being toned and lean--I can see it! I know I feel better when I exercise and I make an effort to do SOMETHING every day. It is so amazing to be free from all the disappointment I carried around for years.